Aug 6

I did it AGAIN! Got home, changed clothes, grabbed some water and was out at the trailhead by 6:12pm. Another awesome evening. (But I did forget the bug spray and got a few bites) The temp was around 77 deg with minimal breeze and clear skies. Gorgeous. Lots more people out tonight. Especially bikers. Fortunately, the trail is wide enough to accommodate all kinds of traffic. I really do appreciate those on their bikes that let me know they are coming up behind me. Sometimes, if they don’t, it scares the hell out of me when they go zooming past and you just hear their tires whirring when they are right beside you.

Aug 5 walk

So, I got myself back on MapMyWalk (thanks for the reminder, twistedrandall) Apparently I walked 3.58 miles on Monday. That little jog in the middle decreased my pace time by quite a bit! Last night, I walked 56 minutes and I went 3.78. Sure seemed like I was walking faster than 15 mins/mile. Well, a goal to beat I suppose.

Food: Last night I made the hamburger zucchini cheese concoction. Quite tasty. For snack, I had my ice cream sandwich. Just one this time :).

RA meds: It seems like I continually have to renew my prescription to get my Enbrel. I don’t understand why I can’t just be good for a year or even 6 months without having to get the Doc’s okay. She only sees me every 4 months. Ah well. The Enbrel seems to still be working okay. I just really don’t like having to put these biologics in my body at all. If I was dedicated enough and strong enough, I could probably just go on a really strict diet that eliminates all inflammation inducing foods and continue to exercise. But, unfortunately, unlike my amazing sister, I don’t have the stamina or the willpower to stick with something like that.

Sleep: Was hoping that the walking would help me fall asleep at night. So far, not happening. I hate it when my brain is on overtime. It’s always taken me a long time to fall asleep (except when I was drinking heavily). 1 1/2 to 2 hours used to be the norm. I tried reading. I tried getting back up. I tried Nyquil’s sleep aid, nothing worked. Since I quit drinking (10 months, 19 days ago), it has been a bit better. But it still bugs me. Now it takes me from 1/2 to 1 1/2 hours to fall asleep. So when morning rolls around, it’s really hard to get up. I am the kind that needs her 8 hours. This morning it felt like the duration between snooze hits was about 30 seconds. I hit the damn thing 4 times before I finally crawled out of bed.

Happy hump day

Aug 5

I did it. I finally put one foot in front of the other and just moved. Wow, something so simple, but it took me months to finally do it.

I went for a walk after work yesterday. I know, hard to believe, right? But yes, I pulled into the drive, ran inside and changed into shorts and a top, put on my tennis shoes, filled a bottle with water and was back out the door in record time. Headed to a trail close to my place and at 6:08pm I was on my way. Fortunately, it was a really nice evening. Clouds were blocking the sun, there was a slight breeze and the temp was probably around 85 deg. I was walking along a small river and you could see it slowly meandering along its way, ducks and geese flying in and out. The breeze was blowing through the cottonwoods along the river so you heard the melodic sound of the leaves in the wind. It even smelled like summer :) Lots of gratitude was felt for such a great walk.

I was pumping the old arms and getting into the groove. I even jogged about 1/8th a mile! Didn’t want to over-do the first day back out! I estimate I went about 3.3 miles total. I was back at my car by 6:55. So, 48 minutes. It was humid – sweat was dripping off my cheeks (facial cheeks, not the other ones), and it felt really good. Tonight I will again attempt the impossible – getting out the door :) and do the same routine but will first spray myself down with some bug spray just to be on the safe side.

While walking I was thinking to myself how I was going to do about 20 minutes of exercise once I got home. I mean, after all, I was all warmed up and everything. I was going to do some squats, a plank, some push ups and then stretch. I really was going to. I was all ‘mind set’ and everything. I got home, walking in the door, and POOF – all my thoughts of continuing to exercise were gone. I immediately went into the backyard and cranked on the grill, got out my salmon and prepped it, pulled out the veggies and got the steamer ready. Dinner was done, I sat down to eat – and then it dawned on me – CRAP I forgot to exercise! hahaha Wow, the mind REALLY IS the first thing to go!

Yesterday food: Breakfast was a banana and my, what I call, CRAW – carrots, raisins, chopped apples and walnut pieces sprinkled with cinnamon. Lunch was Marie Calendars fish. Dinner was salmon and steamed broccoli and cauliflower. Snack – don’t hit me. . . . 2 ice cream sandwich bars. I know I know. I’m bad.

Today’s food intake: Banana for breakfast, Marie Calendars roast beef, handful peanut M&Ms(written in teeny tiny font, or spoken with a teeny tiny voice). Dinner is skillet hamburger meat cooked with zucchini and a sprinkle of cheese, with some garlic bread. And more than likely, 2 MORE ice cream sandwiches. Shouldn’t be too many more of them left… can’t waste good food !!!

Ouch-o-meter: Not bad. Haven’t felt any worse for wear. A 1.

Health issues other than RA: My pelvic floor muscle spasms seem to be under control. Things have been pretty normal for about a week. Now yesterday after the walk, I did feel like I had to pee when I got home. I did my “exercises” and it calmed down. I just need to keep up the pelvic exercises to relax those muscles “all the time” instead of sporadically, like I have been.

Here’s to staying on track and remaining motivated with my exercise.
trail 4-6

July 21

Monday. Hm, a typical weekend. Didn’t do anything physical this weekend, well. . . yes I did. I mowed my lawn (shortened the weeds). I have a hand-powered mower so lots of brute force went into the mowing. I was out about 9:00am on Saturday and my God it was hot already. I worked at it for about an hour. I didn’t finished all of it, so went back out in the evening and finished up the back and did my tiny front lawn also.

Didn’t eat all that well and read most of the day Sunday.

Food: Today I ate some apple, carrot, raisin and walnut mix for breakfast. Lunch was Marie Calendar’s frozen dinner with veggies, potatoes and roast beef. Snacks were yogurt, a banana and a handful of peanut M&M’s. Dinner, I stopped at my daughter’s right at dinner time ( :) ) and got a slab of turkey meatloaf (from Sprouts) and a big glass of fresh milk (the kind they deliver in glass bottles.) It’s 7:15pm and I’ve had my candy bar.

Ouch-o-meter: Not bad. Hands and parts are doing okay.

Physical Therapy: Headed to PT on Wednesday. Hope I learn a bunch so I can feel confident when I head out for a run. (Yes, I said ‘when’ not ‘if’.)

My recurring mental mantra: “Just do it” I’m hoping that if I keep repeating it I will finally get going!


July 18

Sometimes I feel like such a loser. Seriously. I really do want to work out or bike to work or run or SOMETHING. But I just flat out choose not to because 1) I would rather sleep in, or 2) I would rather just sit on the couch and do nothing, or 3) I’m so unmotivated. Sorry, sorry excuses. If I would just GET OUT THERE. Aarrgghh!

Food: Yesterday – No breakfast, a 1/2 turkey and provolone sandwich, and OMG – I must have alzheimers – I cannot for the life of me remember what else I had to eat yesterday at lunch. Geez. . . For a snack I know I had a handful of M&Ms. Dinner, I fried some ground beef for tacos, fried up some corn tortillas and made a taco salad for dinner. I had a glass of rootbeer and for a snack about 8:00pm I had 3/4 of a candy bar :)
Today, a banana and latte for breakfast, 1/2 roast beef and turkey sandwich (no cheese), some Fritos, and 1/2 cup of Noosa yogurt. Tonight, I’m not sure yet. But I have one last candy bar in the fridge waiting for me to eat it for dessert :)

Exercise: None – fingers crossed I begin on Saturday.

Ouch-o-meter: Nothing big. A 1+.

I hope to get in with the PT next week to begin working on my muscle spasms. But I can begin working out before. This weekend is supposed to be hot, so I need to get out of bed, spray myself with some bug spray and make the most of the early mornings before it gets too hot. Plus I have lawns to mow (well, weeds to shorten) since I was out of town last weekend, and it’s been raining each day for about 10 days.

Find happiness this weekend and enjoy :)

July 17

GOALS. . . .I need to set goals. I end up going home and just forgetting about EVERYTHING. I eat, plop myself down on the couch and watch TV until bed time. There are SO SO many things I could be doing instead of mindless TV watching (albeit, I’ve caught up on some good movies recently.)

FOCUS. . . .as stated yesterday, I really need to focus. I seem to be wandering aimlessly in my brain after I leave work. Sometimes I’m just so focused on getting home and not stopping at a bar or liquor store that I forget anything else.

I think beginning a routine and repetition are key here. I get anywhere (depending on the day/night) from 7 to 8 1/2 hours sleep a night yet I have such a hard time getting up. I could sleep so much longer :) So, I’m thinking I need something to look forward to in the mornings. . .a reason to rise and shine. Yes, getting exercise and remaining healthy are great reasons, but so far they haven’t been enough to get me going. Any suggestions?

Food: intake yesterday wasn’t awful. No breakfast; 1/2 a turkey and provolone sandwich, chips, an apple, a yogurt for lunch; handful of M&M’s for snack; a crispy chicken salad from Old Chicago’s of which I ate half and saved half for today’s lunch. I had a St Pauli Girl’s non-alcoholic beer with dinner. A Hershey’s bar for snack at 8:30pm. (Must stop doing that)

Ouch-o-meter: My right forearm/hand is still giving me fits. Not ridiculous fits, but it’s still bothering me. Wonder if it’s the osteoarthritis and not the RA. Earlier I would have given the pain a 4+, but now it’s at about a 3.

Exercise: We ALL know the answer to this one. None.

I keep letting each day slip away and before I know it, it’s going to be snowing outside and I will regret that I didn’t get my ass off the couch and out of my house while the weather was good. The days just seem to go by so quickly any more. Sheesh.


Plan a

July 16 – happy HUMP day :)

Wow, has it been a while or what?

FINALLY went to the Dr (urologist) on Tuesday to find out why I feel like I’ve had a 5 month UTI. She said I am having pelvic floor muscle spasms. This can be treated with physical therapy and then I can do the exercises “at home.” THANK GOD. So, now that it is the middle of summer, I will hopefully get my ass in gear and get back out on the running trail. I feel like every muscle I used to have has gone completely soft. So gross.

My food intake: Not the best. I’m still eating large quantities of sugar/chocolate for an after dinner treat. My meals aren’t too bad but it’s been fluctuating. I had a reunion this past weekend and so there was travel time and poor eating involved.

Exercise: None.

Ouch-o-meter: My right forearm has been feeling some pain this past week. Don’t know if it’s because I was holding on to the steering wheel too tightly while on my very long drive. I’ll give it some time before I worry about it. Pain today is about a 4.

I’m ready to do my daily blog or close to it, now that I’ve been given the “you’re okay, get back out there” speech from the Doc.

Focus is key!

Chin up, eyes forward. . .

Hey guys and gals out there. It has been way too long since I posted to this site. Mostly because I’ve done nothing to warrant a post!

On exercise: Absolutely nothing and I can SO tell. I’m still eating great quantities of sugar to counter balance my craving for alcohol and it’s beginning to show itself on certain body parts. I haven’t been able to run because I still have a tilted bladder that causes me to think I have to pee. But that doesn’t mean I can’t do crunches or planks or squats or push ups or. . . . . I’ve procrastinated so much it’s not even funny. I set the alarm for 6am this morning so I would have plenty of time to get myself ready for a meager 12 mile bike ride to work. I had planned my ride to be an easy peasy, slow as she goes type of ride. No time tables to meet, no reason to hurry. Just enjoy a cool morning ride along the banks of the river and on the easy concrete trails. But no, I snoozed the damn clock until 7:15am. It really is just getting that one foot out the door kind of thing. So bad, so bad!

On food: The last few weeks have been horrible with mostly fast foods and lots of Coke’s. I’ve been eating okay the last 7-8 days or so – Grilled salmon, brown rice, a total veggie pesto pasta, apples. It comes and it goes.

On my RA: My hands have been giving me some minor fits recently. They just feel tired and tender on the joints (duh). But, pain today is probably only a 2.

I am trying to hard to get back out there and exercise, but it just seems like I park by butt on the couch and there I stay. I blame it on my bladder because I don’t want to blame myself for being lazy and nonproductive.

It’s bike to work day next week – maybe that will be what finally gets me in gear! Happy HUMP Day all :)

April 16

I hope I’m not the only one who procrastinates about exercise and getting my arse off the couch and onto the mat/pavement/trail. I’ve really had some spectacular ideas on exercise and how to incorporate it into my morning routine. But. . . do I do it?. . . . Noooooooo. I so love my sleep.

On exercise: My thoughts on ways to stay active without messing with my bladder:

• Bike to work (and back) 2-3 times a week
• Mornings I don’t ride, walk briskly for 4 miles
• 30 day challenge at home (pushups/situps/squats/crunches/planks/abs/core)

These should be simple enough to get me started. I got to thinking that maybe my bladder is where it is because my core has turned to tapioca. The best laid plans. . . . .

Ouch-o-meter: My OA still causes pain in my wrists but overall I’d give it a 1.5. I go in for a physical tomorrow and more blood tests. We’ll see if I’m as healthy as I think I am!

On food: After reading that blog yesterday about sugar and listening to Jack, I’ve gone back to rethinking my way of eating those sweet nummies. Yes, I will continue to eat them, but I will be more aware and keep my consumption to a moderate amount. Instead of having cookies and M&Ms for a snack in the afternoon, I will just forgo anything but lots of water. After dinner I will enjoy my ice cream or candy making sure I stay with a single serving. As I get farther along in my sobriety, I will continue to reduce the sugar/”white bread” intake.

On my love life: Huh? What? You talkin’ to me? Love life? Don’t make me laugh . . .

Have a wonderful hump day :)


April 15

Because of my recent and still present “battle” with alcohol and my 7 month abstinence, I have been craving sugar. Lots and lots of sugar. Having rootbeer floats every night, and not just one. Eating cookies, Crunch n’ Munch, well, you name it. . . .

I went to a website that discussed the max amount of grams of sugar you should have in your diet. Well, wasn’t much. 25 grams daily or 6 TEASPOONS. My God, I must be eating in the neighborhood of 200+ grams a day minimum!! hahaha Case in point, I just finished lunch. Today I decided to enjoy a regular Coke (which happens about once a month) with my meal. I just looked at the grams of sugar in this single can – 39 grams in just this can alone. On the one hand, I won’t drink diet anything because of aspartame so I end up getting the sugar of a “regular” Coke. Personally, I will take sugar over aspartame. But, consuming neither is preferable, right? :)

I would like you to check out this video from back in the day – probably before most of you reading this were born. The host is Jack Lalanne. He was a man ahead of his time when it came to health and fitness. What is amazing is that he talks about proteins and veggies. He says nothing about grains or breads. It’s funny that he mentions eating cereal which is made with sugar and then how we added sugar to the cereal, then he states that eating protein for breakfast is the way to go.

This video also relates to me on two counts. He speaks of alcoholism as well as being a sugarholic. Enjoy :)

Jack Lalanne

April 12

YUCK — it’s a “feels like” 25 out there with rain turning to snow (at this very moment, you just can’t tell from my picture) and winds at 19 mph. Nope, so not enduring this kind of weather to run a 5k.
Call me a wimp if you want!! Not going to happen.

It’s a good day to stay inside :)

Happy Sunday all.

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