Dec 19

And here I go. . . Not off to a good start with my newest life-style venture but I did start.

Thursday morning I started the day waiting until the last possible moment to get out of bed – instead of the planned meditation I had scheduled for myself.

Food: I did make a veggie smoothie for breakfast. Lunch was from Baja Fresh. It was a steak salad with no dressing. So far so good. But 2:30pm rolled around and all I could think about was something sweet. Ugh. I ate a bag of nasty Welch’s fruit snacks. 18g of sugar with 31g of carbs total. Can I get an OOPS?!! For dinner, I just had vegetables. See photo.
dinner 12-18
It included kale with pumpkin seeds and lemon juice, and roasted vegetables (broccoli, mushrooms, asparagus) and of course lots of water. Then 8:00pm crept in and began screaming for something sweet. CRAP. I grabbed a small handful of some dark chocolate chips (used for baking). It satisfied me.

And it’s Friday. Again, I hit the snooze about 4 times knowing full well that I wanted to get up about 15 minutes early to meditate. And, that didn’t happen.

Food: I didn’t even leave myself enough time to make my veggie smoothie. Best laid plans. . . . I had a banana for breakfast. (yes, I know bananas have a bunch of sugar in them, but I’ve had a banana for breakfast every day since I can remember – it’s another habit I’m hoping to break) Lunch, I went to Mad Greens and had what they call a Ty Cobb salad (with no dressing.) It’s romaine lettuce, a few tomatoes, bacon, hard boiled egg and avocado. Just finished it. Wonder how long it will be before I break down again and go in search of something sweet? Won’t be hard since the peanut and regular M&M’s are sitting on my desk (for ‘guests’) and the fruit snacks are back in the break room. I bought lots of meat at the store the other night, so I should have a good protein packed meal with veggies for dinner🙂

Tomorrow is the first day of my vacation, and hopefully I will be better at getting this ‘get healthy’ change into full gear. Like I said, I may not be off to the best start, but I did start.

I’ll post weight info and pictures later.

Happy Friday all

December 12

ha ha ha ha ha, YES, I’m still here!

Haven’t done a damn thing for so long, I felt it unnecessary to bore you with my lackadaisical attempts at eating right and exercising. But, I have a new idea to get myself back in motion. Beginning on Thursday, December 18th, 2014 at 00:00:01 hours MST I am changing my diet, my exercise routines, my way of existing day to day, because so far, whatever I’ve been doing, well – it’s just not working.

A little back story as to what ails me and reasons why I’m going to attempt this change in life style. This may get graphic, and this may only be appropriate for women nearing, going through, or having recently past the menopause stages. Then again, it may help all kinds of folks🙂 I myself am 58. I started going through my “life change” in the summer of ’08. (making me 51 1/2 at the time) I had my last ‘cycle’ in July of ’09 right about the time Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett died. Then gradually over the next 6 years, my body has made some odd changes. I began drinking way more often – not that I didn’t drink a lot already, but it was getting worse. In May of ’10, I began losing weight uncontrollably. I have no idea why I lost my appetite. The pounds just came off. I got really concerned. Went to the Dr and after some tests, was told they didn’t know what was going on but if things got worse let them know (sheesh.) I went from 151 lbs to 122 lbs in 4 months. Then in ’11, I was diagnosed with RA (rheumatoid arthritis in my hands). In ’12, I began having a grumbly stomach and very loose bathroom issues. (no details) I thought this was because of my drinking and a possible deteriorating liver. I tried probiotics but didn’t help. It caused me some concern but did not affect my life in any way, so I let it be.

Because of how I felt and how much I was drinking, I decided to quit in Sept of ’13. I was truly hopefully that by quitting I would find that my system would get back to a normal bathroom routine. And that I would just feel better overall. Well, it’s been a year since I had my last alcoholic beverage, and my issues are still the same, except that now I have pee issues. My feet now stink and so does my pee. (How embarrassing that I’m sharing that) But it really does. I have no idea why. It’s been like that for almost a year. Here I am trying to improve my eating and drinking habits and things are only getting more strange.

I have no idea if menopause caused all this or what, but it sucks that at my age I have to deal with this shit now.

SO – all that being said – I’m tired of feeling crappy and disappointed in myself for letting myself go. I haven’t been exercising, and although my main food diet isn’t bad, my sugar intake is the worst. Since I quit drinking, I’ve used the excuse that it is okay to eat a candy bar a night because my body is craving the sugar I’m not giving it through alcohol. Well, that excuse has SO been run into the ground. I’m at 445 days without a drink. I can no longer use the candy bar as a substitute, but now I’m now ADDICTED to the sugar. Holy crap, right???

I believe that if I get on the bandwagon and go gluten free, my body will thank me. Basically no “white or wheat” in my diet. And since I believe the ‘new’ diet will help with my feeling perpetually exhausted, I will have the drive to exercise or at least get out and walk like I used to. This in turn will help me sleep better which will increase the blood to my brain. . . well, you get the picture.

My first step will be a mild detox on Thursday and Friday, Dec 18 and 19. Not sure exactly what I’ll do for it, but I want to clean out a bit before I begin. I will be taking 2 weeks of vacation so will be away from work and can focus on ‘me’ during that time period. We shall see. I will keep a log here once I begin so if anyone has similar issues and wants to see if what I do works, then maybe I can help others on MY quest for a more focused and ‘present’ lifestyle.

Thanks for hanging with me everyone!


Sept 18

That’s my story and I’m sticking to it:

Had a migraine yesterday afternoon, so by the time I got home, I really didn’t think it was a good idea to head out into the 88 deg temps and try to run. Even if I was only going to do 2 miles. So instead I had dinner – spinach salad with pumpkin seeds and EVOO/lemon dressing, fried chicken strip, the last of the green beans from my garden, and asparagus smothered in cheese (!)

Dinner 9-17

then headed to Dairy Queen to get a (sm) Butterfinger Blizzard. I have SUCH self control, don’t I? Sheesh.

Not even going to attempt to plan what I am going to do this evening. Seems whatever I set myself up for, I fail😦 But I MUST get in a run.

Stay healthy my friends🙂

Sept 17

To keep the flow going, figured I’d jot down some notes from this past week.

Exercise: I started mapping my progress on The bootcamp on Saturday was awesome. I took it somewhat easy as I didn’t want to walk away with an injury or cramped up! Running up a zillion bleachers is killer, as is going up as many stairs! Felt good to push myself though. Can’t wait for this Saturday. Also continued to jog to prepare for the 5k in October. Did a 3.2 mile run with a 13:45 pace. Pretty slow, but I did it. Did another 3.1 a couple days later with a better pace of 13:13. The “Marc’s Challenge” is continuing, just not as regularly as I would like. My next workout will consist of 25 pushups, 45 squats, 35s planks, 45 situps, 40 crunches, done in 2 sets.

Today I was planning to head to our NEW fitness center at work and be here by 7:00am to run 2 miles. Yeah, right. Slept right through that. Guess I’ll be running this evening😦

Diet: Well, some days are better than others. Yesterday’s breakfast wasn’t too bad. I had a granola, yogurt, blueberry “parfait” and a hard boiled egg, lunch was a sub sandwich with all the bad processed meats (but it was nummy!!) and last night’s dinner was 3 bean tosadas with cheese and salsa. Plus 4 Bit-O-Honey candies. Oh, and snacks at work (really bad): a bag of those Welch’s fruit snacks and a handful of peanut M&Ms.

Today started a little bit better: I had a banana for breakfast, and an Asian salad with chicken for lunch. Dinner will be some kind of chicken and asparagus with a spinach salad (EVOO and lemon juice). We’ll see how it goes!

Weight: Weighed in this morning. First time in months. I was at 132. So, that’s good. Holding steady.

Guess that’s it for now. Keep moving🙂

Sept 12

I began a post on August 17th, but never finished it! haha Just realized that NOW! I was talking about a great kayaking weekend I had. Saturday I went with a group of women from a Meetup group. Had a great time, although later in the morning it got windy and was harder to paddle! Then on Sunday, my sister came up and we went kayaking. Sunday was gorgeous. The water was like glass and the temps were awesome. My arms were a bit sore though!! What a workout.

But I digress. It is now September.

Exercise: Last Sunday I finally began “Marc’s 30 day Squat, Abs and Pushup Challenge” workout (here.) Finally! I’ve had his challenge info since March. I did modify it to fit what a 58 year old woman could handle. But not by much. My quads are killing me, by the way! I went for a 3.2 mile jog on Wednesday afternoon. Took me 40-some minutes, but I did it. Considering I’ve signed myself up for a 5k the day before my birthday (October 5), I best get out there. I also signed up for a 10k in November🙂

Eating: I’ve actually been doing pretty well. My sister is totally into eating super healthy (but she has other issues where she needs to). I have decided to follow by example. I focus on trying to eat 6 vegetables a day, 2-3 fruits a day and protein at every meal. Now, realize I said FOCUS. I do the best can, but there are certainly days I don’t get the 6 veggies. I mean, look at today for example – they had free hotdogs and chips downstairs – that was lunch. So yes, there are days I don’t follow a strict enough regime, but I do the best I can. Generally I get 2 veggies at lunch, and I try to eat 3 helpings of veggies at dinner. (ex. roasted veggies – brussel sprouts, asparagus, mushrooms, red pepper as about 2 servings, and a kale salad with pumpkin seeds, bacon and EVOO with lemon juice.)

Ouch-o-meter: Same as in my last posts. Fortunately nothing is getting worse since I’ve been on Enbrel for over a year now. I have little if no pain at all from the RA. My OA (osteoarthritis) hits now and again, but nothing too serious. I’ve been lucky. Plus, I think exercising and cutting out the processed foods makes a big difference also.

Bootcamp: I am doing a Saturday bootcamp for the next 5 Saturdays. It’s an hour and a half of nonstop stuff. Looking forward to tomorrow.

So there you have it. It’s been a busy month of August into September. And, oh, the big news in case I forget to mention it next week:


Aug 6

I did it AGAIN! Got home, changed clothes, grabbed some water and was out at the trailhead by 6:12pm. Another awesome evening. (But I did forget the bug spray and got a few bites) The temp was around 77 deg with minimal breeze and clear skies. Gorgeous. Lots more people out tonight. Especially bikers. Fortunately, the trail is wide enough to accommodate all kinds of traffic. I really do appreciate those on their bikes that let me know they are coming up behind me. Sometimes, if they don’t, it scares the hell out of me when they go zooming past and you just hear their tires whirring when they are right beside you.

Aug 5 walk

So, I got myself back on MapMyWalk (thanks for the reminder, twistedrandall) Apparently I walked 3.58 miles on Monday. That little jog in the middle decreased my pace time by quite a bit! Last night, I walked 56 minutes and I went 3.78. Sure seemed like I was walking faster than 15 mins/mile. Well, a goal to beat I suppose.

Food: Last night I made the hamburger zucchini cheese concoction. Quite tasty. For snack, I had my ice cream sandwich. Just one this time🙂.

RA meds: It seems like I continually have to renew my prescription to get my Enbrel. I don’t understand why I can’t just be good for a year or even 6 months without having to get the Doc’s okay. She only sees me every 4 months. Ah well. The Enbrel seems to still be working okay. I just really don’t like having to put these biologics in my body at all. If I was dedicated enough and strong enough, I could probably just go on a really strict diet that eliminates all inflammation inducing foods and continue to exercise. But, unfortunately, unlike my amazing sister, I don’t have the stamina or the willpower to stick with something like that.

Sleep: Was hoping that the walking would help me fall asleep at night. So far, not happening. I hate it when my brain is on overtime. It’s always taken me a long time to fall asleep (except when I was drinking heavily). 1 1/2 to 2 hours used to be the norm. I tried reading. I tried getting back up. I tried Nyquil’s sleep aid, nothing worked. Since I quit drinking (10 months, 19 days ago), it has been a bit better. But it still bugs me. Now it takes me from 1/2 to 1 1/2 hours to fall asleep. So when morning rolls around, it’s really hard to get up. I am the kind that needs her 8 hours. This morning it felt like the duration between snooze hits was about 30 seconds. I hit the damn thing 4 times before I finally crawled out of bed.

Happy hump day

Aug 5

I did it. I finally put one foot in front of the other and just moved. Wow, something so simple, but it took me months to finally do it.

I went for a walk after work yesterday. I know, hard to believe, right? But yes, I pulled into the drive, ran inside and changed into shorts and a top, put on my tennis shoes, filled a bottle with water and was back out the door in record time. Headed to a trail close to my place and at 6:08pm I was on my way. Fortunately, it was a really nice evening. Clouds were blocking the sun, there was a slight breeze and the temp was probably around 85 deg. I was walking along a small river and you could see it slowly meandering along its way, ducks and geese flying in and out. The breeze was blowing through the cottonwoods along the river so you heard the melodic sound of the leaves in the wind. It even smelled like summer🙂 Lots of gratitude was felt for such a great walk.

I was pumping the old arms and getting into the groove. I even jogged about 1/8th a mile! Didn’t want to over-do the first day back out! I estimate I went about 3.3 miles total. I was back at my car by 6:55. So, 48 minutes. It was humid – sweat was dripping off my cheeks (facial cheeks, not the other ones), and it felt really good. Tonight I will again attempt the impossible – getting out the door🙂 and do the same routine but will first spray myself down with some bug spray just to be on the safe side.

While walking I was thinking to myself how I was going to do about 20 minutes of exercise once I got home. I mean, after all, I was all warmed up and everything. I was going to do some squats, a plank, some push ups and then stretch. I really was going to. I was all ‘mind set’ and everything. I got home, walking in the door, and POOF – all my thoughts of continuing to exercise were gone. I immediately went into the backyard and cranked on the grill, got out my salmon and prepped it, pulled out the veggies and got the steamer ready. Dinner was done, I sat down to eat – and then it dawned on me – CRAP I forgot to exercise! hahaha Wow, the mind REALLY IS the first thing to go!

Yesterday food: Breakfast was a banana and my, what I call, CRAW – carrots, raisins, chopped apples and walnut pieces sprinkled with cinnamon. Lunch was Marie Calendars fish. Dinner was salmon and steamed broccoli and cauliflower. Snack – don’t hit me. . . . 2 ice cream sandwich bars. I know I know. I’m bad.

Today’s food intake: Banana for breakfast, Marie Calendars roast beef, handful peanut M&Ms(written in teeny tiny font, or spoken with a teeny tiny voice). Dinner is skillet hamburger meat cooked with zucchini and a sprinkle of cheese, with some garlic bread. And more than likely, 2 MORE ice cream sandwiches. Shouldn’t be too many more of them left… can’t waste good food !!!

Ouch-o-meter: Not bad. Haven’t felt any worse for wear. A 1.

Health issues other than RA: My pelvic floor muscle spasms seem to be under control. Things have been pretty normal for about a week. Now yesterday after the walk, I did feel like I had to pee when I got home. I did my “exercises” and it calmed down. I just need to keep up the pelvic exercises to relax those muscles “all the time” instead of sporadically, like I have been.

Here’s to staying on track and remaining motivated with my exercise.
trail 4-6

July 21

Monday. Hm, a typical weekend. Didn’t do anything physical this weekend, well. . . yes I did. I mowed my lawn (shortened the weeds). I have a hand-powered mower so lots of brute force went into the mowing. I was out about 9:00am on Saturday and my God it was hot already. I worked at it for about an hour. I didn’t finished all of it, so went back out in the evening and finished up the back and did my tiny front lawn also.

Didn’t eat all that well and read most of the day Sunday.

Food: Today I ate some apple, carrot, raisin and walnut mix for breakfast. Lunch was Marie Calendar’s frozen dinner with veggies, potatoes and roast beef. Snacks were yogurt, a banana and a handful of peanut M&M’s. Dinner, I stopped at my daughter’s right at dinner time (🙂 ) and got a slab of turkey meatloaf (from Sprouts) and a big glass of fresh milk (the kind they deliver in glass bottles.) It’s 7:15pm and I’ve had my candy bar.

Ouch-o-meter: Not bad. Hands and parts are doing okay.

Physical Therapy: Headed to PT on Wednesday. Hope I learn a bunch so I can feel confident when I head out for a run. (Yes, I said ‘when’ not ‘if’.)

My recurring mental mantra: “Just do it” I’m hoping that if I keep repeating it I will finally get going!


July 18

Sometimes I feel like such a loser. Seriously. I really do want to work out or bike to work or run or SOMETHING. But I just flat out choose not to because 1) I would rather sleep in, or 2) I would rather just sit on the couch and do nothing, or 3) I’m so unmotivated. Sorry, sorry excuses. If I would just GET OUT THERE. Aarrgghh!

Food: Yesterday – No breakfast, a 1/2 turkey and provolone sandwich, and OMG – I must have alzheimers – I cannot for the life of me remember what else I had to eat yesterday at lunch. Geez. . . For a snack I know I had a handful of M&Ms. Dinner, I fried some ground beef for tacos, fried up some corn tortillas and made a taco salad for dinner. I had a glass of rootbeer and for a snack about 8:00pm I had 3/4 of a candy bar🙂
Today, a banana and latte for breakfast, 1/2 roast beef and turkey sandwich (no cheese), some Fritos, and 1/2 cup of Noosa yogurt. Tonight, I’m not sure yet. But I have one last candy bar in the fridge waiting for me to eat it for dessert🙂

Exercise: None – fingers crossed I begin on Saturday.

Ouch-o-meter: Nothing big. A 1+.

I hope to get in with the PT next week to begin working on my muscle spasms. But I can begin working out before. This weekend is supposed to be hot, so I need to get out of bed, spray myself with some bug spray and make the most of the early mornings before it gets too hot. Plus I have lawns to mow (well, weeds to shorten) since I was out of town last weekend, and it’s been raining each day for about 10 days.

Find happiness this weekend and enjoy🙂

July 17

GOALS. . . .I need to set goals. I end up going home and just forgetting about EVERYTHING. I eat, plop myself down on the couch and watch TV until bed time. There are SO SO many things I could be doing instead of mindless TV watching (albeit, I’ve caught up on some good movies recently.)

FOCUS. . . .as stated yesterday, I really need to focus. I seem to be wandering aimlessly in my brain after I leave work. Sometimes I’m just so focused on getting home and not stopping at a bar or liquor store that I forget anything else.

I think beginning a routine and repetition are key here. I get anywhere (depending on the day/night) from 7 to 8 1/2 hours sleep a night yet I have such a hard time getting up. I could sleep so much longer🙂 So, I’m thinking I need something to look forward to in the mornings. . .a reason to rise and shine. Yes, getting exercise and remaining healthy are great reasons, but so far they haven’t been enough to get me going. Any suggestions?

Food: intake yesterday wasn’t awful. No breakfast; 1/2 a turkey and provolone sandwich, chips, an apple, a yogurt for lunch; handful of M&M’s for snack; a crispy chicken salad from Old Chicago’s of which I ate half and saved half for today’s lunch. I had a St Pauli Girl’s non-alcoholic beer with dinner. A Hershey’s bar for snack at 8:30pm. (Must stop doing that)

Ouch-o-meter: My right forearm/hand is still giving me fits. Not ridiculous fits, but it’s still bothering me. Wonder if it’s the osteoarthritis and not the RA. Earlier I would have given the pain a 4+, but now it’s at about a 3.

Exercise: We ALL know the answer to this one. None.

I keep letting each day slip away and before I know it, it’s going to be snowing outside and I will regret that I didn’t get my ass off the couch and out of my house while the weather was good. The days just seem to go by so quickly any more. Sheesh.


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